I'm Moving

Hey there readers, if I have any left lol. I just wanted to say I'm moving to Tumblr. Don't worry I will keep what I've posted here, but all my new work will be posted on the new site. I hope you still check out my stuff, and I've actually posted the first part of a story on there. Please come by and check it out. :D

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The Thirty Third Day: More Emo Stuff From Yours Truly

Well idk where to start with this. Zach (my ex) told me today that in order for me to get better, to be completely over him and able to function on my own that we cannot talk at all. I won't be able to text him till I am completely 100% better, he will know too, which sucks cause I can't just lie. As much as I hate to admit it he's right. Doing this gives me initiative to be better because then we can be friends, I'll be able to talk to him on the phone without him getting aggravated and without me crying my eyes out. Its just gonna be so hard, he knows me so well, I told him everything, which I know is bad. I should be able to tell other people stuff, not just him. So for the next couple of weeks, hopefully that's all it takes, I will probably have my ups and downs.

So besides telling me this he also told me about my personality flaws, which despite what he thinks I knew about I just didn't want to admit them because I didn't want to add them to the growing pile of stuff I deal with. He told me that I am immature, I'm needy, and that I need people to constantly pay attention to me, along with a whole bunch of other things that I can't remember. Now several of these I agree with, I am needy, and I am immature. However I hate when people pay attention to me, I don't like being the center of attention, I prefer to be off to side but not a wall flower. I asked him what things about me are immature and at first he refused to tell me, saying that its bad I need him to tell me. I admitted that putting statuses on Facebook saying "Dear so and so, please have my babies, you're sexy" are bad which it is. He then said that drawing naked men the way I do is bad, not because I draw them but instead of making them artistic nudes I make them smutty. He also said that the funny conversations I have with my best friend Mindy, where we jokingly call each "bitches" and "whores" or where we pretend to be different people, are immature too. I agreed with him but I'm sorry, I don't care if doing those things make me immature I'm not changing them. Those two things really make me who I am and if I were to stop doing those two things it would completely change me. So apart from those things I am going to change and become a more mature adult, after all I am almost 20.

I am getting tired and losing my train of thought, so I may continue this post another time but as for now this is my life right now. Whatever, I'll deal with it, I should be used to dealing with pain by now.

The Thirty-Second Day: Jesus Chronicles Part 4

Ok, so I know I haven't posted weekly like I promised, and true I due have more time on my hands but life has been kinda crazy so you will just have to deal with it. However, I was doing my dishes tonight and I thought up a new part for The Jesus Chronicles. So hear it is, hope you enjoy!

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Well, again I was doing the dishes when *POOF*

Devil: Hello babe

Me: GOD DAMMIT!!! Why must you always poof in while I'm doing the dishes, I nearly broke that plate. Its Fiestaware, do you know how expensive that is!?!? DO YOU!?!?!

Devil: Well I'm sorry but I just came in to give you this. *kneels down and pulls out engagement ring*

Me: OH MY GAWD!!! No way, no way, really? Yes Yes I will totally marry you Charles!!

Devil: Kyle!! What did we say about using my real name?

Me: Oh, sorry *monotone* I'm so sorry for using your real name my dark lord, please forgive me *rolls eyes*

Devil: It's alright, now, who do you want to invite to the wedding?

*POOF*

Mary: WELL ME OF COURSE *hic* I of course must be there *hic*

*POOF*

Jesus: Mother, what are you doing here? I told you to never come here!

Me: RELAX *hic* They are just a bunch of fags, what are they gonna do, shove glitter down my throat!!!! *chugs down drink* Well, I wouldn't mind that if it was vodka flavored glitter.

Devil: Well Jesus, guess what? Me and Kyle here just got engaged.

Jesus: WHAT!!!! How dare you enter into the sanctity of marriage with this boy!!!

Devil: Whats wrong? Jealous I got here first?

Me: Ooh, can we have Chinese food at the wedding, I love crab ragoons!

Jesus: *laughs*

Me: *coldly* Excuse me?

Jesus: What?

Me: Did you laugh at something I said?

Jesus: Oh, well I just think it ridiculous that you want Chinese food at your wedding!

Me: HOW DARE YOU INSULT THE FOOD OF ALL FOODS, CHINESE FOOD IS MANNA FROM HEAVEN, IT IS ONLY THE BEST FOOD EVER CREATED AND IF I WANT TO HAVE IT AT MY WEDDING I WILL, GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!

Mary: Woah *hic*

Devil: Kyle, darling. It's quite alright. We can have whatever you want at the wedding. He has no say.

Mary: Ummm, *classy, british accent* dearest Kyle, if I might be so bold as to wonder if I perhaps could be the bar tender, why it would mean so much to me *hic*

Me: Nice accent Mary, but yes, you can be the bar tender

Jesus: Big mistake

Mary: SHUT UP!!!! Yes, yes, yes. I'm the bar tender, my dream has come true, free unlimited alcohol. WOO HOO!!!!!

Jesus: But you already have free unlimited alcohol.

Mary: But that shit you call liquor in Heaven taste like its watered down. ITS SHITTY!!!

Jesus: Mother! Control your tongue.

Devil: I think perhaps you should remove her before she does something bad

Mary: NO, I want to stay here with the homosexuals, I want to learn about glitter and shopping and why gay men have such perfect abs. Why don't you have abs like that Jesus, don't you lift weights, are you too afra- *POOF*

Me: Oh thank god, I thought they would never leave

Devil: Me too, now, I think perhaps we should think of what we want for desert at the wedding

Me: Ooh, lets have chocolate chip pancakes, and at the reception we can watch Toy Story 3

To be continued...

Playlist of Feelings

So last night I had a great idea to make a list of songs that describe how I felt during the relationship and how I feel now. I know it random but I think I will be fun. It will be listed by the part of the relationship then the song plus artist that is also a link to the song.

First Week -- Stole My Heart by Little and Ashley

Weeks of Happiness-- Fever by Kylie Minogue


Never Felt This Way-- Never Saw Blue Like That by Shawn Colvin


I Would Do Anything For You-- White Diamond by Kylie Minogue


Cheated-- Learning the Blues by Katie Melua

Getting Better-- I've Got The World On A String by Michael Buble

Rocky Bit-- Once Was Love by Ingrid Michaelson


Good...For Now-- Bushel and a Peck by Doris Day


Break Up-- The One I love is Gone by Katie Melua


Dead Inside-- Hollow Like My Soul by Emilie Autumn


Alive Again-- Piece by Piece by Katie Melua


Emo-- Am I Blue by Ella Fitzgerald


Great-But not Perfect-- Be Ok by Ingrid Michaelson


Everything is Just Gonna Get Better!-- Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble


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Yay! I finished, I do realize there is a lot of repeat artist but their songs best described my feelings. Enjoy!

The Thirty First Day: My Life Up-To-Date

So I thought I would post an entry just about my life so far and where it's going and all that wonderful stuff. A general summary of everything that's happened in the past couple of weeks would be "Really stressful" or "Incredibly emotional". I am going to split this entry into five sections, School, Family, Work, Love, and Personal.
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So, first up is school. That's a crazy issue right there. After going to the Art Institute of Pittsburgh for three and a half quarters I have finally realized that I cannot get to where I want by going to this school. I knew from the beginning that the major I went into (Media Arts and Animation) was not for me but I thought it would help with drawing comics. I found out this quarter that it focuses mainly on the computer and not old school 2d animation. I researched schools and found a great one, The Academy of Art University. It is based in San Francisco but it also has 100% online classes. I will be getting my major in Illustration, which is exactly what most comic book artist take. The classes I will be taking are exactly the type I need, including ones on comic page layout and fantasy creature design. I haven't applied yet due to money issues but hopefully that will all be resolved soon enough. This school looks so perfect, it seems exactly like what I've been looking for. Here is a link to the Academy's Illustration section: Illustration
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Well now onto family. Life here in the Reinhardt household is crazy. I have two brothers but I seem to get stuck with all the chores. My mother says everyone has designated jobs, but then how comes I get stuck with doing others work. It is my little brothers job to feed the dogs and I ended up doing that yesterday and it's my older brothers job to take out the garbage and I did that tonight. My mother constantly yells at me, and won't listen to me when I try to explain things. She gets mad when I say I do everything, and if I try to tell her to do something she get angry. If I could get counseling for this family I would in a heart beat. For once in my life I would like someone in my family to listen to me with yelling or interrupting me. *sigh* We also extremely tight on money. I don't have the money to apply to my new school now and our car just broke down so money will be stretched even further.
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As for work, I have applied to a couple jobs. Crazy Mocha and Starbucks, I didn't want to work while going to Aip because it's really stressful working on my homework projects and then dealing with working too, but money is so tight I need to work. However since I withdrew from Aip I have more time on my hands, and when I eventually do go to school I will be online, so I will have a more flexible schedule. I may not be able to go to my new school until the spring semester due to money, and if that happens I will at least have more time to save up for my own laptop and other things for school. If anyone has ideas for possible places to apply please let me know because I need the money. :)
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Aah, now for the love section. This is gonna be long. You remember that guy Zachariah Davis I posted about I while ago who I was/is so in love with. Well, we broke up, or more like he broke up with me. I understand now why he did it, he didn't feel a "connection" with me, he did feel one with his ex though. It all started about a week after our one month anniversary. His ex Adam had come to stay with him, I was fine with this because I too was staying at Zach's place that night so I knew nothing would happen. We all had a fine time together, I had to leave the second day to go home, Adam had stayed on to go to Anthro-Con. I went back to Zach's the next day and saw just in time for Adam to leave. Zach and I went up to his room to lay down, and Zach told me he had slept with Adam, when he explained it to me he made it sound like he raped Adam, he lied. Him and Adam had made love which hurt me so much. Zach decided that to apologize to me we would go to his home town for the week of the 4th of July. The ride there was fun enough and I was feeling fine and had a fun first three days. The fourth day Zach was talking to Adam on the phone and I listened through the door, I did it to make sure I could trust him again. The snippets of conversation I heard made it sound like he was going to break up with me, when I confronted him he told me that he was having trouble building a "connection" but he did love me. We both agreed to keep trying. The rest of the week was going fine until we decided to go to a party his parent's friends were throwing. Zach and I decided to stay up all night and just go to the party. We got there and had some food, but Zach had become extremely tired and was leaning against so he wouldn't faint. The host of the party thought we were making out and asked us to stop because he had children there. We both became very angry and got into Zach's car and sped away. His parents got angry that we got angry and followed us home and proceeded to yell at Zach and then his father had the nerve to call me out as if I was his own child. He then told me to my face that "He didn't want me there." I managed to make it the last two days, but the ride home with his family was so stressful. During the drive a female driver cut his father off and he proceeded to chase the girl down the high way like a child, I was seconds from screaming at him. Anyway, we made it home and Zach and I were fine, we had a great couple of days after that. Then he came to my house about four days after the family visit and I knew something was wrong because he had brought the books I lent him. He broke up with me. The entire world fell apart, I had never felt so hurt. He always said my eyes had this amazing light in them and in that moment he say them die, I am not exaggerating, he said that. I understand why he did it and I know how sorry he is, we are still great friends and he still apologizes for hurting me so much.
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Now basically I am going to try and get all the thoughts that are bouncing around in my head out and typed out. I feel fine now, I'm not upset or angry anymore, I don't want to die or give up. But I was mad at one thing, after he broke up with me he went back with his ex. I knew it was going to happen but out of of respect for me and my feeling he could have waited more than two days. Everything else I was just upset about. I loved him (I still love him and I'm never going to not love him), I wanted to marry him. There are few things I am sure about in the world but there are/were two things. 1) I want to draw comic books and 2) I wanted to marry Zachariah Davis. I still don't think he knows how many times a day I spent fantasizing about being with him for the rest of my life. Whenever we looked at engagement rings or furniture I think he thought I was kidding about buying them for us in the future but I never was, I was never more serious. I am over him now, he doesn't believe me, but I am. I know I will find the one for me and feel that connection. However I am always going to love him, no matter what, he told me my love has to change but I won't let it. I won't let those feelings just vanish into nothing. I just hope he knows how much he means to me and how I will never let him go, I will always be there for him.
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Well, thanks everyone for listening to me rant about everything. More drawings are to come and more stories!!!

The Thirtieth Day: New Story

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Ok, so first off, brand spankin' new pictures of The Baron and Tristan, and a new drawing of them together!!!!

I gave The Baron a new weapon, instead of a broad sword, he now has a large axe. Tristan is also wearing a slightly more provocative outfit than normal.

Now on to the story. I do not have it completely fleshed out yet but this is what I do know: There are many other worlds than our own (Tristan's world), and sometimes things from other worlds cross over to ours and vice versa. Well in this story a queen in another world crashes into our world causing the worlds to collide and create chaos. She wages war on our world all for her scepter that she claims was stolen by Tristan. This woman is known only as the Red Queen (no Alice in Wonderland reference). Tristan and The Baron must use their powers to counter the Queen's assault on our world and Tristan will discover the true origin of his scepter and even the Rose Stone itself.
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The Twenty Ninth Day: Brand New Story, Brand New Tristan

Well ok, I didn't make a brand new Tristan, but I designed him some new armor that looks amazing! I call it the Engel Armor (Engel means angel in German). The two pictures you see above are the first versions of the armor. All of the areas that aren't black on the armor are actually reflective like mirrors.

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The picture posted directly below is the almost final armor, there is one more change I would like to make that just popped into my head moments ago. I am going to change the shapes of the blades on the chains into the shape of wings. I realized that there was nothing "Angel" like about the armor but I wanted to kee p the name and then it hit me, "Make the blades wings!"

The next post will be about the actual story that this armor is involved in, and in fact the armor isn't a main element of the story, Tristan's Rose Scepter is.